I remember the first day of 2015 like it was yesterday. It was the day God told me, "it's time to start healing" and just like that I broke. I was standing in the shower with tears pouring down my face. I felt as if I was going to die if I didn't let it out. My chest was so tight I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital. My husband held me on the bathroom floor while I cried for hours, but as soon as I spoke the truth, I could feel my body getting lighter and lighter. The weight of this secret I felt so ashamed of was no longer weighing me down. I know it was Gods grace that allowed me to make it as long as I did without breaking. He knew I couldn't handle healing yet. But he knew 2015 was going to be the year. That I was finally ready and in healthy mindset to work through this. After twenty some odd years I finally admitted I had been sexually abused as a child.
I reached out to my moms, my pastor and my counselor. I started the healing process. I turned it all over to God, the ultimate healer. Through this experience my relationship with God grew closer and stronger than I ever imagined possible. And for that I am extremely grateful.
2015 was also full of love and compassion. It was the year I jumped into Special Olympics full force. Volunteering, coaching, fundraising and committees. Through this experience I discovered my purpose and passion. I made new friends and learned so much from the athletes and other coaches. I am extremely blessed and grateful to be part of the Special Olympics family!
2015 was truly filled with greatness! On New Years Eve I got my final grades for the semester. I was so freaking proud of myself for juggling school, kids, Special Olympics and ME!
As I reflect on 2015 I am proud, grateful, blessed and full of love. I welcome 2016 with open arms, open mind and open heart. I want to thank everyone who has been part of my journey! You know who you are! My family, my friends and all the amazing people I've connected with this year.
May 2016 bless us all with peace, love and happiness. May we be grateful for it all, good and bad. May we be open to the lessons in the darkness. May we love and honor the God inside each and everyone of us. May we all be the change we wish to see.
Dear 2016, I'm ready!
Love,
BeGrateful
